this is now my 2nd week of school. I’m really scared and nervous for what’s to come for these few months. Not only that, but I feel like some kids are just rude to me there. and I know sometimes I’m the talk of the town (in the positive version) of the school, because there’s people I already knew and some people that just wanna hang out with me, especially from cross country. but that doesn’t mean I love it all too much. It’s hard sometimes. I’m trying to focus on my classes but people there make it hard. Then you got people flashing others at my school with no shame and it’s all weird, because the school I go to is *very* common with kids from kicked out schools, so it sucks. My school even lies about stuff to make me feel better but it never works. Teachers there are really nice but I’m just nervous about drama, and I hate talking to rude people. Sometimes I just wanna talk back but it happens so fast I just act polite. It doesn’t make me sad, but it kinda annoys and stresses the fuck out of me. What makes me sad is growing up, having people you never met that are just not ok, and people constantly telling you the latest drama which I don’t wanna hear. Especially in this generation. People also peer pressure you into acting all grown and tough and it’s so heartbreaking. I just wish I was a little newborn again.
