I feel so silenced.

Something is happening.

   So….someone likes or liked the guy I like . Me and him aren’t dating but I really like him and he might like me to. It’s some girl that he met and she sent kisses to him and called him “babe” when they weren’t even dating . He told me he which is actually what he said “swore on his life they weren’t dating” and how he “just got annoyed with her” so he “did what she asked”. Like matching pfps on discord, and telling each other sweet dreams . At first I was mad at both of them and I cried rlly hard that night because I really like him . I’m not attached the way I was before, because I changed, but I was so mad because first of all she knew him for two weeks approximately and they weren’t even dating , if they dated I’d be sad but I’d eventually accept it tbh even though it would be hard to take in . But since they weren’t? It was fucked up. I’m not mad at him anymore im more mad at the girl but im mad at what she’s doing . And the worst part? SHE STOLE HIS ROBLOX ACCOUNT AND GOT HIM DEPRESSED . He won’t tell me why he was sad he might tell me today but I wonder if he liked her but I really hope not. He told me he found her so annoying and told me he wanted her to leave him alone . And if he did like her that’s okay…but it would still hurt. (No I didn’t meet him on Roblox I met him through irl friends but we haven’t gotten a chance to hang out which is why we’re online for a bit . ) I think maybe he’s sad because he felt loved by her, or idk, but obsessive girls are fucking insane . You don’t know if they’ll kill you one day or something. I’m upset I could just fucking cuss her out because you don’t EVER treat someone with lust even in two fucking weeks, get them depressed and steal their account worth of many memories . That is FUCKED UP. I told him how mad I was at her . I’m not like so mad at her but I am upset with her because you cannot treat someone like that . You love someone for who they ARE and stuff, not because of other shit that doesn’t matter  . Well the good news is he blocked her but he probably feels so bad about it and I feel bad too. But she shouldn’t have been fucking creepy the way she was towards him . That’s almost sexual harassment . If it isn’t it’s definitely something . 

might post pics soon!

 hihihi :) I might rename this blog also btw idk why, if I can’t, I’ll just make a new one but keep updating here too and there. XC got better and the season is over! I’m doing good :)  AND ILL upload some pics. I love this feeling of 2000s culture. I kinda tear up from it from nostalgia xD 

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 Twitter: lilianalovesYOU

MySpace: lilianablue

Formspring: princess

twitpic: (same as my twitter)

twitvid: liliana 

youtube: lilianablue (i think)

imood: liliaana_

Facebook: (still trying to find another revival ever since offline shut down :(  ) 

Any other sites claiming to be me are NOT me and please report the account! These are my ONLY accounts! tyty:]

will it get better?

 this is now my 2nd week of school. I’m really scared and nervous for what’s to come for these few months. Not only that, but I feel like some kids are just rude to me there. and I know sometimes I’m the talk of the town (in the positive version) of the school, because there’s people I already knew and some people that just wanna hang out with me, especially from cross country. but that doesn’t mean I love it all too much. It’s hard sometimes. I’m trying to focus on my classes but people there make it hard. Then you got people flashing others at my school with no shame and it’s all weird, because the school I go to is *very* common with kids from kicked out schools, so it sucks. My school even lies about stuff to make me feel better but it never works. Teachers there are really nice but I’m just nervous about drama, and I hate talking to rude people. Sometimes I just wanna talk back but it happens so fast I just act polite. It doesn’t make me sad, but it kinda annoys and stresses the fuck out of me. What makes me sad is growing up, having people you never met that are just not ok, and people constantly telling you the latest drama which I don’t wanna hear. Especially in this generation. People also peer pressure you into acting all grown and tough and it’s so heartbreaking. I just wish I was a little newborn again.

Cross country is so damn hard T_T

 It’s been a long time since I made a new post, hopefully you guys weren’t too worried!

I got into cross country about two weeks ago and my first run was pretty bad; I couldn’t breathe through my mouth and nose, and I was abt to die. Well, thankfully I left first class and went home, but I wanted to do it again because I love running and the feeling of it after ur done. My mom was upset, because of how I was crying and stuff when I did my first run, but she was ok with it after a day, #LOL.

I came back two days after that, it was very hard physically and mentally, but I liked it and came back. I made it on the team, #YAY, but it’s still hard. I hope I get used to it and not pass out. I almost left again because I had, girl cramps if you know what I mean. I just had to sit down and it helped, but now that I think abt it i don’t even know if it was those cramps. I have class today again, im not a fast runner but it’s not about how fast you go, it’s how far you ran. So that’s good. Hopefully I don’t leave again lol (:

what really happened on Twitter - 1 - 17 - 09

 hey, if you went back on blips and found out that r4zberii’s account was gone and there was too much spams of rage and tagging one specific person, something HAPPENED.

earlier this morning, I was watching tv and went on blips & r4zberii starts talking about someone harassing her. I told her that it’ll be okay (or so I thought unfortunately) and that I hope they leave her alone. Her and I had an amazing talk afterwards.

Shortly after, I go back on blips only to find her account gone and my one follow went down. I thought it was strange, and her posts were all gone. I go on the everyone page and I see this person straight up Harrassing her.

Now, I’m a cyber bully victim myself dozens of times. And I HAD to defend her because I know what it feels like, and it’s not pretty.

I started to confront them and they accused me of being “schizophrenic” just cause I protected her. wow lol

They even tried to get my address but I thankfully switched to a proxy server the second they said that.

Also, the most fucked up reason of this is that the person who made dozens of accounts harrasing her, is sadistic and they claim they did it because “they hate people who pretend it’s the 2000s & they hate people who type like a scene kid.” Which is the dumbest fucking reason ever,  yet the harasser has a MySpace clone website account lmao what a hypocrite. 

I hope r4zberii gets better from this. I wish her well. DO NOT communicate with the harasser. They want communication. Just please leave them alone and they will go away.